Stickshifts and Safety Belts

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Sunday, June 25, 2006

I'm tired

I just spent two solid weeks with people. Not people who I chose the way I might choose a friend but people who, for some reason, I desire greatly to relate well with. Maybe its because someday (possibly sooner than I expect due to complicated situations at our southern boarder and increased political pressure for g. dub to do something about it), I might be thrown into a very stressful situation with these people. Maybe its just because I enjoy being liked, but for some reason the pressure to "fit in" played heavily on my thoughts and attitudes throughout the two weeks.

On fitting in.... I struggled a lot. It is not easy to enter into a group of people who already have a history. I'm typically a pretty friendly person, but I think I came off rather reclusive and introverted. Both of which aren't typically characteristics of mine. I think I had a lot to consider with my immanent re-enlistment for 3 more years in the military approaching in a few short days. That caused me to be extra pensive through all of my interactions and observations. Three years is a long time. But then again three years can also be a very short time. Can I endure/enjoy three long/short years with this group? That is the question I am facing now.

3 Comments:

Blogger carlymarie said...

and for any of you fellow guardsmen who have stumbled upon this attempt at a blog...."*snap* fruit snacks bitch!"

1:13 AM  
Blogger Mayk said...

Fitting in is often overrated. For example, it's sorta fun to be the weirdo running through the streets of a rural town in a mostly third-world country while everyone stares and yells things at you in a foreign language you don't quite understand. It's also good to not fit in when living in a culture that focuses almost entirely on material possessions and lusts for luxury while you continue on the path less travelled. There's really only one place that ultimately matters where you "fit" and He has already accepted you fully into that group.

11:15 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

LOL, I thought you fit in great. You add a wonderful dynamic to the group. I really got the feeling that you weren't yourself and you were observing a little. I guess there were many times over the tour that you intrigued me by comments and a few actions. I really hope you re-up. I can't even begin to express some of the thoughts you helped stir up in my mind and soul while on tour. Thanks. "*snap* hiking bitch!" This week!

9:03 PM  

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