2 + 2 = God's will?

As my plans for departure to Thailand in May seem to be falling into place smoothly, I cant help but be a little concerned about the math involved in embarking on such an adventure. First and foremost is the math of money. I just got an estimate from my missions coordinator down at Navs headquarters in the Springs and he guesses that I'll need quite a bit more (by the thousands) than I was expecting. He claims that raising money is far easier than I might expect and that I will be amazed and humbled to see how God "shows up" in this area, yet I still remain fearful. Maybe it's the American in me, but the math of money seems overwhelming at the moment. Another mathematical concern, and this should come as no huge surprise to anyone who knows me or has ever read any entry to my blog, is that I want to get married someday and that I'd rather it happen in my 20's or 30's and not my 70's or 80's. And of course a couple of nights ago I was laying in bed realizing that if I spend up to a year in Thailand, that will definitely postpone my meeting, courting, engagement, marriage hopes for at least another year. Another mathematical disaster.

So at what point do we give up on the numbers floating around in our head and just turn our fear and concern over to the God who is far bigger than the American dollar sign and the undeniable "biological clock" of a woman? He created the universe after all, yet is still loving and personal enough to work through the math in all aspects of our lives. I have no doubt that the context of my fears about money and marriage is not what He intends when I look forward to this new adventure with the eager anticipation of His work in a relatively untouched region. He cares and has plans for the math in my life, certainly, but I know that in no way should my fear of math ever inhibit my journey of response to what I see as His will to serve in foreign lands. Stay tuned as I continue to solve for 'y' during the next few months.